Meh.

Today, I don't feel like being fancy and lookin' for a picture. Hell, the entry below isn't even gonna have correct punctuation and capitalization. Fuck it. Rough draft rollin', son.

Now, ramble on and down you go.

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Frame click pause play snap crop.

my hand cuts through the mechanical wind and the car is speeding through lights and shapes and life.

things are accelerated. they slow down. i'm looking down a stick, squaring a ball into a pocket. i'm laughing at sarah, head bent back in joy. i'm smiling at nothing else besides the feel around me.

frame. click. crop. and the moment is frozen behind that angle. my action is stopped by that corner, but god damn you should see the colors in that box.

acceleration pushes the artificial flow into my palm. fingers rip at the matter and catch nothing, but they're moving to the rhythm of the song and picking up all the pricks of the wind so it ain't no thang.

ah lately, lately… what have i been doing lately? being depressed, thats for damn sure. its so odd to see yourself go through some of the hardest times of your life during some of the best. last week i drove over to my friends house in a fit of tears, wondering.. ah god, do i really show up like this? isn't this just a little fucking tiresome?

a few days later, i'm buzzed and laughing and framing away in the taste of a perfumed smoke, laughing away the moments with those i love most. my tears are miles away, evaporating on the freeway they were shed down.

doesn't this all just revert back to that age old cliche, life is a roller coaster? ups and downs, baby. but my roller coaster is all bent into itself. i'm on a perpetual loop. actually, fuck a roller coaster. i'm one of those cheesy carnival amusements that just sends a little caged car around a circle track.

somehow, that appeals to me more. i'd rather be surrounded by flashing lights and people staring up at me while contently eating cotton candy then people vomiting at the thought of riding me.

besides, i'm from jersey… isn't one of my proper settings a boardwalk?